I had a breakdown last night because I realized I have 2 ARD's next week that I had TOTALLY forgotten about and am totally unprepared for. After an all day training out of the building today, I headed up to school to get to work preparing for them. I worked for 4 hours straight and got myself mostly prepared... with the help of a few co-workers who are going to take care of a few things for me tomorrow while I'm at ANOTHER training. I am SO incredibly grateful for the amazing people I work with that are always willing to help out with anything I need. I just hope that one of these days I will be on top of everything enough to reciprocate!
Lately I've had more than one moment of feeling completely horrible at my job... whether it's forgetting to do things or doing something wrong... it's been a little overwhelming. I know that it's my first year and that this is totally normal, but it's HARD! I hate not feeling confident at what I'm doing!
I talked to my parents on the way home from work today and my mom reassured me that there IS in fact light at the end of the tunnel and I'll get there. My dad also mentioned to me that I needed to check my mail for a box on the way home... so I did, not really thinking anything of it. And you know what? I have the most amazing parents in the world. I mean, I already knew that... but look what was waiting for me in the mailbox:
A care package! It honestly couldn't have been more perfect timing. The card made me
It's so true... sometimes we just need someone to tell us!
I think my parents know me better than I know myself, most of the time. I hope that someday I will be as selfless and caring as they have always been. I'm so incredibly grateful to have parents that listen to me, take care of me, and know just how to cheer me up when I'm feeling down.
I love you, Mom and Dad! You mean more to me than I can ever tell you! I can't wait to see you on Friday and give/get a big hug!
That is so sweet! You are not horrible at your job. Just you going back up to school to get work done shows that you are wonderful at your job! You care and want to do everything right. Don't we all!
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ReplyDeletesorry work is stressful right now. try to find the joy in the work you are doing. there may be a lot of unnecessary paperwork and details to bind you up but find happiness in the small moments in life. the kids smiles, their giggles, your beautiful personality, you have so many wonderful things happening right now. you are creating memories that you will NEVER forget.
glad you FINALLY got your boooox. mom asked me days ago if you had mentioned it bc she thought you got it and forgot to tell her you got it. haha silly mom.
i can't wait to see you this weekend. family time is exactly what i need right now. four tests, two papers, three meetings, 12 hour clinical....all in three days next week...
love you pookie :* XOXOX
ps, glad you liked my blog post. it was from some girls facebook. i was laughing so hard that i had tissues to wipe my eyes. glad you enjoyed it :)
I am sure you are doing great, but I totally understand how you feel. Call me if you ever need someone to comiserate with! Miss you!
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I'm glad you are taking the time to get ready for your ARDS! The families/teachers/KIDS apperciate all that you specialists do! I actually I have one today too. Good luck.
ReplyDeleteHang in there!!! I'll be thinkin aboutya! Glad your parents were able to be to save ya with their care package. VERY SWEET!!!!
LAURA